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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

11:14PM - life...death

Tuesday, August 23, 2005
taurus horoscope

Your Tuesday Horoscope Kat!
Your energy level continues to propel you to new heights. Look to find a like-minded person in your vicinity. You might feel like you have met a soulmate, but be sure this person has a similar set of life values as you before divulging your master plan.

Funny how things work out, isn't it?

Current mood: DOOM AND GLOOM!!

Friday, August 19, 2005

4:44PM - bored at work

Katherina- wise and wonderful.

You are smart and cunning. You know exactly
how to make the best of the toughest
situations and you do it with grace
and poise.

Which Shakespeare character are you?

Current mood: bored

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

11:05AM - amusement!!

I am at work, but I have tomorrow off!! YAY! I am in some dyer need of amusement...yes...amusement...
I have little tasks to do but half of them are done and I still have one more day left to work. I work friday and after that I am going on a tour of the FOX theater, I can't wait I love that place..it is soo pretty and old. Tomorrow will be fun, and I swear if something doesn't work out and my plans are ruined..heads will roll!!!


Current mood: hyper, horny, bored!!

Monday, August 15, 2005

9:16AM - REN FEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The renaissance festival was sooo much fun. The belly dancers have some new dancers and dance routiens, and there is another attraction which I do find to be very attrative. Well with that said... I am at work yet again and will be stuck here until 5pm and wont get home till almost 6. I might not even be working a full week this week. Melissa really doesn't need me for much, all of the work she has to do is shit I can't so I really have nothing to do right now. I have already finished the work for today and she might have a few more little tasks for me. But there is no point to just sit here and do nothing from 8 - 5 every day. Besides school starts next wednesday and I have better things to do and people to hang out with before school starts.
Now that I have rambled in an attemp to kill time, I should probably go so that I do not get caught. Since I have only killed about ten minutes of my day now. Fuck I am bored!! Nick come visit me!!!

Current mood: DOOM AND GLOOM!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, August 8, 2005

4:17PM - BORED!!!

At work so have to keep it short. I finished all of my work about an hour and a half ago and I am bored out of my mind, can't wait to just go home!! I don't look like me at all!! (damn work clothes) no make up, just a little light green eye shadow to match my green shirt. .. damn gotta go before I get caught....

Current mood: bored

Tuesday, August 2, 2005

10:39PM - end of summer..

I started my new job today!! I am making $8 and hour!!! the work is ok but I have a headache from it being to bright in that office. I will only be working there till I start school which is in three weeks. I can't wait.
I went out driving for the first time on my own last night. It was soooo much fun, I went out again today to go to the store. Now all I have to do is save up and get a car then I will be set. AND I CAN SEE PHEBS AND RINA WHEN EVER I WANT!!!!!!! well I am off to take care of some thing before bed. My summer is officially over. oh well. Six every morning from now until my next break (and of course weekends). Mel and Shawn are watching a movie so I won't be going to bed until well after he leaves. Oh one last thing.. I CAN'T WAIT FOR DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current mood: Too many..I go to sleep now..

Thursday, July 28, 2005

1:05AM - weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

SINGLE!!!!! For the first time in a long time I have no one else in my life!!!! Ever since I was 14 I had someone "there" now NO ONE!!! and it feels good. Senior year is going to be the best.. so much dancing... I hope Kalonji will still do one with me...
OH I FINALLY HAVE A JOB!!! I start tuesday!! I can't wait!! I will be Melissa's assistant at the Omni Detroit River front hotel!! heeheehee. I don't know how much I will be making but anything is better than nothing and it will give me something to put on other applications... I will only be working there until school starts which is in a month from yesterday!! I can't wait. It is my turn to RULE THE SCHOOL!! I am already coming up with my senior prank, Mel is helping me with that and when Frank comes home I will ask for his help as well. yes.. there are so many evil plans being conjured up in my mind. MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!
Here is to the first part of the rest of my life!!!

Current mood: Happy, Horny, FREEEEEE!!!!!!!!

Monday, July 11, 2005

12:12PM - hahahahaha

This week July 11 through July 17

Saturn is officially on the move once again and changes signs from Cancer to Leo on Saturday. It will be moving away from the communications sector of your chart and will bring new perspectives on your home and family situation. Saturn's shift spells a new two and a half year cycle for you. You may want to move house or remodel your property, or may have additional responsibilities such as a new baby or elder parent. Mars trines Pluto on Friday, which will move you through any obstacles that may be holding you back.

hmmm... how accurate are these things???
Phebs you know which parts are the best... heeheehee

Current mood: Awake for the moment

Saturday, July 9, 2005

2:10AM - screams

GOD FUCKING DAMN IT!!!!! Nothing is allowed to be easy or at least bearable is it? I don't know how much longer I can take this shit! I want to just scream out loud to release some of the screaming in my head but I can't do that until monday when I am home alone and I can shove my head deep into a pillow where there is no air and scream until something bursts. Being the witch of Vengeance is fun, being to witch of Illusion is hard, tiresome and complicated. At times I wonder if this is just another Illusion that I trapped myself in. I hate feeling like this. So angry and depressed I want to cry but each emotion is fighting to come out and therefor no tears fall, no emotion is shed, and I am forced to feel it all build up inside. As if shaking a bottle of pop and watching it fizz knowing as soon as you start to open that lid everything will begging to spill out until there is practically nothing left. And then you are left with nothing but a half empty bottle and a giant mess to clean up. Every night when I attempt to sleep it is a restless slumber. For my mind never rests, thoughts are always humming and the sound of my own screaming is never ending. Even during the day I can still hear it in the back of my head, along with all of the voices that go with each mask. OH how I long for the day when I can break free and shatter all of these masks and show my true self to the world! I only pray that that day comes before it is to late and I am forever lost in the endlessness that is my mind...

Current mood: AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 6, 2005

11:43PM - Vampire Hunter D.....


I still have yet to see the entire movie... what do you say Phebs? One of the next sleep overs?

Current mood: Gloom and Doom

Thursday, June 23, 2005

9:42PM - me?

Yours are DEMON wings, possibly resembling
those of a bat - huge, black, and clawed. You
are cold and impure, and a born Creature of the
Night. Possibly with an interest in those of a
vampyric nature, or possibly one yourself. You
have little sympathy or care for humanity and
see them as existing for no real purpose -
thus, you can be very manipulative and bend
them to fit YOUR purpose. And you do have a
purpose, to everything you do. Nine times out
of ten it will be strictly for your own self
gratification or perhaps merely amusement. As
soon as a person or situation is no longer
productive or pleasurable in your life, you
will rid yourself of it or them. You could very
well have just a touch of superiority complex
(or perhaps more than a touch?). Despite all of
this, you are capable of love so intense that
you place that person's wishes even above your
own - the only time that you will do so.
Chances are you are attracted to people in
which you see...yourself. Though many hate you
for your carelessness and evil...Sexy, fierce,
sinful, and mysterious...you turn me on.

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Current mood: mischievous

12:48PM - arrrr!

Thursday, June 23, 2005
taurus horoscope

Your Thursday Horoscope Medea!
You desperately need the opinion of others today. A big decision about the direction your life is taking has arrived. You should find today to be one of the best times to hook up with a partner, soulmate or good friend.

Current mood: crappy

Thursday, June 16, 2005

3:58PM - Horoscope... how accurate are they??

Wednesday, June 15, 2005
taurus horoscope

Your Wednesday Horoscope Medea!
You need not face the present crisis alone today. Talking to a partner will be the best way to feel better about a situation. His or her objectivity about things is priceless.


Thursday, June 16, 2005

Your luck is greatly improved today. Look to make a move in any relationship or love matter that has not been going your way. A friend or close relative has some key information.


Friday, June 17, 2005

You will have an opportunity to take a short journey today. This could lead to many wonderful opportunities. Fate is your best friend tonight. Use the afternoon sojourn to prepare for adventure.

Current mood: aggravated

12:06AM - AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Magick 8 ball say yes, it is certain, as I see it yes....

Current mood: infuriated


3/12 - Detroit, MI @ Cobo Arena
that's all I have to say.... Phoebe... you know...

Current mood: irritated

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

11:43PM - truth

Why is the truth the hardest thing to find? Every truth is hidden behind lies upon lies. All I want is what I once had, all I crave is what once was... Why must every person be such a hypocrite? why must everything toy with me to the point where my mind cannot take anymore? Is this all a test in you twisted sick little game? When will this be through. When will the final exam be here?
Why must memories slip in and out of thought? Why does my own mind torture me so? So many memories... so many lives... when will the true one arrive?
So many questions... will they ever be answered? Will I know before the end? or will I have to live though another life without the one thing I miss, need and crave so much?

Current mood: numb

Sunday, June 12, 2005

9:51PM - ....

Why must my mind be this way? And why is it that when my mind is this way everyone and everything must some how know about it? And must they torment me? Have I not amused them yet? Are they not satisfied? And when will they be satisfied? When my head bursts...is that what they are waiting for?

I wish my mind could stay one way, I do not know how much longer I can take this constant changing. I do not know how much longer I can take these thoughts..... I count down to the end...

Current mood: undetermined


Which Family Guy character are you?

Current mood: bored and hyper

Saturday, June 11, 2005

2:56AM - The sexynesssssssss


Current mood: Sexy


You are the queen faerie

What faerie are you like (GREAT PICTURES)
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